Ive been wanting to write in here for a few days now but i just havent gotten around to it. Alots happened to be honest. It always seems to amaze me that everytime i get something figured out...it changes. Kinda like me rethinking my choice to stay in Illinois. Yes im thinking about moving out to california again. I'd like to move out to San fran but I would have a place to crash on nicks floor which might be too good to pass up. that would mean LA. Did I mention the best street fighter players live in California. Im still very nervous about moving on my own again but after me and Sammy got into it for the first time ever the other night, it made me think twice about staying. We smoothed stuff over the other night but i cant say that there wasnt an awquard moment for a sec. No one over there is used to me losing my temper...its just that i was tired of grown men throwing tantrums and decided to step in. Even told Sammy I'd give him an attitude adjustment if he didn't start acting right!!! Yeah i was hot lol. Not just because i was sick and possibly running a fever lol. Im about over the sickness now though. Yeah just one of the many benefits of working at the mall lol. Anyway, back to Cali...To be honest im just scared i think. More like what happens if i get out there and cant make it being my main concern....or what if, nah im just worried about not making it if and once i get out there. Did I mention San fran averages between 45-75 degrees all year round...yeah its nice.I could prob get gamestop to transfer me to either city and if need be....there is always taco bell *cringes*. Sometimes i honestly wonder why i havent had an easy road during life...Childhood, college, and now adult hood. I can only assume that i have many blessings coming. The reason i say that is becasuse when i worked at bankers there is/was a guy named joe who did really well before i left...and he too was having it really hard, but what he said while he was accepting his award in tears I'll never forget. He said "God won't put you in a situation you can't handle, and if he does....He'll bless you for it." I keep those words with me, even today or when im feeling down and out. They keep me looking forward, even if I dont know where or what im looking for. I just have this pulling feeling towards San Fran though... but logically its not the better choice. Its about a 5 hour drive between them And i would know at least one person in san fran but i have nick in LA. I dont even know if im going yet but i dont feel that pull in rockford... and things keep falling apart here in town for me which makes e think im supposed to go. Its a difficult decision for me to make. But one thats going to be needed to be made and soon at that.

P.s. Played some quarters new years eve and owned everybody!!!